Wednesday, June 29, 2011

Reality Check

You know how when you go on vacation you take lots of amazing pictures of yourself and you're happy with every single one of them and feel like you could be on the cover of the next fitness magazine?  Yeah, me neither.

So, we did go on vacation and we did take lots of amazing pictures, just not of me.  I mean my husband took some pictures of me like this one.  And I thought okay, not great, but not totally horrible.  I mean I have on make up, my hair is done, my boys are being goofballs and I'm smiling.  I mean yes, I can see the chub in my midsection, but I'm not surprised.  I know it's there.  No big deal.
Then my sweet well meaning husband takes this picture and I think,  Wait! No! That is not me!  Someone has totally messed with this picture.  I do not look like that!  Then like being slapped across the face I realize yes that is me.  Yes that's my stomach rolling like the river over my thighs and yes my arms really are the size of tree trunks.  Okay, so I know that pretty much anyone that is bent in this position will have stomach rolls.  BUT I didn't expect it to look like this on me.  It was at this point that I politely told my husband that I would no longer be in any vacation photos and he politely responded with the fact that I would be in photos.
I'm glad he told me that I had to be in pictures because we got this cute one.  No I'm not happy with how I look, but it's our family and I'm part of it.  Rolls and all.
I hate that middle picture.  Despise it.  Loathe it.  But you know what?  I'm glad he took it.  I needed that reality check.  I needed to see that the crap I'm eating is turning my body to crap.  I needed to see that the lack of exercise is turning me into something I hate.  I needed to see that no matter how I fix my hair or how much make up I put on or I cute I dress that being fat is not cute or pretty.  All the make up, cute clothes and great hair can't hide the rolls.  It sucks, but it's my reality, it's my truth and I'm going to change it.

1 comment:

  1. Pictures are often a rude awakening for me as well :/ I never see the person in the pictures when I look into the mirror...I'm trying to use the pictures as a motivation for me as well!

    BTW - I'm glad I stumbled across your blog today!


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